y body is punishing me...
I've gained 5 lbs from yesterday to today.
I'm trying to keep myself calm and trying to sleep. I was 10lbs away from my goal, now I'm here... 15...lbs.
I've seen me 10 lbs near the goal a few times already in the past 2 weeks. Why I can't stay like that? Why did I have to binge and not purge, specially today, because last night I was freaking out about my pulse in rest being too high and that being from purging.
I hope when I wake up that at least I lost 3 lbs in water. Please, don't do that to me. I'm feeling terrible.