so when I get emails and messages of people saying i'm x weight and I want to be x weight and I want a buddy etc. i'm sitting here thinking.... why do you need someone else to hold you accountable? get some self control. "ana buddies" started out as not wanting to be alone/competition buddies. yeah cheerleading was there, but mostly you worked on your self and used your buddy's results to motivate you to run that extra mile. and also be there for each other during tough times. there is so much of a difference with how ana stuff used to be like in 2002-4 and how it is after it got blew out and became a fad and banned and all kinds of stuff. I really think the majority of the public got it wrong. sigh. whatevs. don't message me wanting to lose weight. i'm not a weight loss fairy. just stop eating. people say it doesn't work, trust me, it works. or if you don't want to stop eating, then exercise. more than you want to. until you pass out. three hours a day at least. and no more than 1000 calories a day. make that 900. and vary calorie days down to 200 or 300 and back up. make up some awesome reason why you are only allowed to have 500 calories on a Wednesday. etc etc. i mean really, why don't people do this all the time????? oh wait..... they can't.... they don't have the will power. okay, quit messaging me.
Im new to this community so i thought i would introduce myself. Im 23 years old and ive had an ED since i was 14. I recovered when i got pregnant with my son. Hes 3 years old now and I haven't been able to lose all the weight i gained. Ive had a lot of the thoughts and feelings i did before i got "well".ive started restricting,purging and exercising again. i cant stand to look at myself in the mirror...i disgust myself. I was just hoping to find others that understand me. I don't really know anyone that I can talk about this. It makes me feel so alone...
y body is punishing me... I've gained 5 lbs from yesterday to today. I'm trying to keep myself calm and trying to sleep. I was 10lbs away from my goal, now I'm here... 15...lbs.
I've seen me 10 lbs near the goal a few times already in the past 2 weeks. Why I can't stay like that? Why did I have to binge and not purge, specially today, because last night I was freaking out about my pulse in rest being too high and that being from purging.
I hope when I wake up that at least I lost 3 lbs in water. Please, don't do that to me. I'm feeling terrible.
Hey everyone. 25F from NJ here. I was "recovered" from bulimia, laxative use, and EDNOS habits about 6 years ago when I met my boyfriend. I loved him and he told me he could never be with someone with an eating disorder (at the time I had lied and said I had /had/ an ED but not anymore) so I "recovered" for him.
But I just don't see the point anymore. I hate everything about my weight now and I also think I have a hormone issue or something from recovering and gaining the weight too fast. Losing weight is not as easy as it used to be. I'm just looking for people who connect on my level and can be my buddy. I'm alone in these thoughts and darkness and it would be really nice to have at least one soul who understands.
s anyone else ed like me, that switches in between the worst stages of b/p or complete fasting during depression issues?
Older I get more I hear my therapists telling me about that when I was 13/14, at that time I could care less, right now, it affects my relationship. Men want akinny/fit wives, but can't deal if she has an ed.
Sorry, x-posted in a lot of places so I need to vent!
Long time gone. Me, screwing up. I find myself always trying to "get back on track" again and failing over and over. Sigh. How do I pick myself up and throw myself back into these routines? I'm a better person all around when I am restricting. I hate my weight. Disgusted. I hate the crap I've been shoving down my gullet. When I restrict I have energy. I think I keep up with life better. What gets you going again?