Gently, gently down I go
Or not so gently
y body is punishing me...
I've gained 5 lbs from yesterday to today.
I'm trying to keep myself calm and trying to sleep. I was 10lbs away from my goal, now I'm here... 15...lbs.
I've seen me 10 lbs near the goal a few times already in the past 2 weeks. Why I can't stay like that? Why did I have to binge and not purge, specially today, because last night I was freaking out about my pulse in rest being too high and that being from purging.
I hope when I wake up that at least I lost 3 lbs in water. Please, don't do that to me. I'm feeling terrible.
s anyone else ed like me, that switches in between the worst stages of b/p or complete fasting during depression issues?
Older I get more I hear my therapists telling me about that when I was 13/14, at that time I could care less, right now, it affects my relationship. Men want akinny/fit wives, but can't deal if she has an ed.
Sorry, x-posted in a lot of places so I need to vent!
Hey going to try to write more. Ive lost more weight but not as much as id like. I know if id knock out the drinking id be in the 120s by now but I suck at selfcontrol. I just started drinking a couple weeks ago and have a lovehate relationship with it. Im broke now though so im quitting today!!!
Im doing measurements today.. I think my hips and waist may be smaller. I need my friggin thighs to shrink! My size six pants are baggy but im still to nervous to try on my size five or four pants.
Ive cut down on the purging and lax. Im only doing either maybe once a week at most. The stupid thing is that I know its bad, but I cant deny yhe weight loss.
I need to lose four lbs this month but theres not enough time I think. Im going to try though!