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Hey everyone. 25F from NJ here. I was "recovered" from bulimia, laxative use, and EDNOS habits about 6 years ago when I met my boyfriend. I loved him and he told me he could never be with someone with an eating disorder (at the time I had lied and said I had /had/ an ED but not anymore) so I "recovered" for him.

But I just don't see the point anymore. I hate everything about my weight now and I also think I have a hormone issue or something from recovering and gaining the weight too fast. Losing weight is not as easy as it used to be. I'm just looking for people who connect on my level and can be my buddy. I'm alone in these thoughts and darkness and it would be really nice to have at least one soul who understands.

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s anyone else ed like me, that switches in between the worst stages of b/p or complete fasting during depression issues?

Older I get more I hear my therapists telling me about that when I was 13/14, at that time I could care less, right now, it affects my relationship. Men want akinny/fit wives, but can't deal if she has an ed.

Can't understand.

Sorry, x-posted in a lot of places so I need to vent!

xena70 -main

new girl

Just wanted to say hello.

Im 30. Ive had an ed since i was 6...though i wasnt diagnosed until 15. A mixture of anorexia (current) and bulimia. Major laxative abuser.

Im 5 foot 7.5 // 171cms
Low weight 85.8pounds // 39kg
High weight 180.4pounds // 82kgs
Current weight approx 105pounds // 47kgs

Hope everyones day is going ok.
Xoxo
three little kittens

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Long time gone. Me, screwing up. I find myself always trying to "get back on track" again and failing over and over. Sigh. How do I pick myself up and throw myself back into these routines? I'm a better person all around when I am restricting. I hate my weight. Disgusted. I hate the crap I've been shoving down my gullet. When I restrict I have energy. I think I keep up with life better. What gets you going again?

25+ buddy?

Hallo,
I just joined livejournal and am looking for mates. I am not sure how this page works so I will post my stats.
Height: 1,57m
CW:48kgs
LW:43,5kgs
GW1:44kgs
UGW:<40kgs
I have always had issues surrounding food and weight and would love to have a friend who has similar experience and stats. I will be there for support and we could help each other reach our goals.
Thanks

Been MIA

Hey going to try to write more. Ive lost more weight but not as much as id like. I know if id knock out the drinking id be in the 120s by now but I suck at selfcontrol. I just started drinking a couple weeks ago and have a lovehate relationship with it. Im broke now though so im quitting today!!!

Im doing measurements today.. I think my hips and waist may be smaller. I need my friggin thighs to shrink! My size six pants are baggy but im still to nervous to try on my size five or four pants.

Ive cut down on the purging and lax. Im only doing either maybe once a week at most. The stupid thing is that I know its bad, but I cant deny yhe weight loss. 

I need to lose four lbs this month but theres not enough time I think. Im going to try though!

Apprehensive....

Hello all,

I am new to this community. I have had bulimia since I was 12, I am 23 now. Once I went through recovery I gained weight so quickly and went from 114 to 120 to 130 to 140 and now I am a whopping 186 from over the years. I have been exercising every day and eating 1200 cals a day but see no results. I miss the quick results I used to get when I would starve myself and throw up whatever I did eat.

Anyways, I would LOVE to have an Anabuddy, the only things is, I feel guilty about helping someone hurt themselves. Has anyone dealt with this feeling? I just don't know if i can stick to my Ana ways without someone there to hold me accountable.

Help?

Newbie

SO me and Ana have been friends a while, but I'm new to this... so I'll start with my stats;

Age: 22
Height: 5"6
CW: 99lbs

If anyone is interested in an Ana buddy I'd be more than happy!

graciegrai@hotmail.com

xox

umm

oookay, so after recovering from the lax/purging thing, I rehydrated myself and decided that I am better than that. I know starving has always been my M.O. but I had eaten more that day and felt gross. mostly I don't condone those behaviors, nor partake in them...

which is good because I had given myself a small abrasion on my esophagus plus heartburn after purging episode. which was lame. it finally feels better.

woke up, and down to 1*6.5 today... lost another inch around my waist, hips, boobs, thighs, and butt. I could do without loosing boobage, but part of me just remembers that they are like, pure fat.

still not brave enough to try on some of the pants I couldn't fit into like a month or so ago, even though I've lost at least 10 lbs... i'll wait til I get in the 120's I think.

i'm feeling okay, think i'm going to fast today seeing as it's 2:30pm and I haven't eaten yet... i'm reading a book called "fasting rediscovered" and it's really good.

going to try and update more regularly... it's not that I don't have time to, it's just sometimes, especially if I haven't lost weight, that I feel like I don't want to talk :(

Hi :) I'm new!

Hi,

I'm new to this so don't overly know what I'm doing but just wanted to post something and say hi :)

I'm 23. I have had an Ed for 8 years (time flies...not) but I feel very lonely and in need of some support right now so I plucked up the courage to join this. I joined one years ago but couldn't find it anymore but this one seems nice! I think I just need a place where I feel I'm not alone with my thoughts and feelings anymore. Even just reading what some of you have written made me feel better. I would love to gain some friends that I can speak to on a regular basis! xx